What? This totally counts as Statistics study...

Why do I have a gift from someone I hate on my desk? I only just noticed this.

So Debussy is back on, which means only one this: Kiran's half-arsed attempt to study!!! Yay!!! But hopefully I'll be able to kick myself into a routine... I really need to step up my game if I wanna... you know... survive life and stuff.

And it's that stage of the year where I get all emo and self-reflective and stuff. Amazingly it's not too bad this year. Woo hoo! I just need to cycle through the priorities in my life... as usual. Maybe this year I'll actually change. Fingers crossed, aye?

Another news, apparently I get a car if I do well this semester. Not just any car, but the Mazda 3 that I have made mine and grown incredibly attached to over the past year. I love the little thing. It can out-rice V6s (until you hit 80...) and takes corners superbly. Doesn't like speed bumps, though...

Anyway, i really should do some more study before sleep... and then a full day shift! Let's hope it'll be better than today: I spoke to 6 people on a 7 hour shift...

Karnivool

LONG LIVE THE VOOL!

Hi 5, Intel

I mentioned before the speed of the Core i7... check this out:

First song at 10:19 to be imported

And then...the last song at 10:19 to be imported

#1219. That's 20.32 songs PER SECOND!

Windows Live Writer…win?

Ok, so I’m gonna give Windows Live Writer a try… So far, I already hate it for it’s lack of auto-correct, and the fact that it does weird stuff when I press enter. Maybe I’m being too technical for it’s poor little brain…

On the subject of Windows Live, had fun yesterday trying to make a movie in Windows Movie Maker and have it freeze multiple times. Expected, maybe… but I was making a movie of a Demo of Movie Maker, which is kind of the definition…

Also, last night was the first time I’ve been in the valley on a Friday night… sober. It was an odd sensation. But I ate at KOH-YAAAAAA!!! It’s a pretty rad place, especially when the SCREAM every time someone walks in the door, and have the uncanny ability of knowing whether someone is leaving or not. I sucked it up and ate all this weird food like ox tongue…

Then we got Red Bull Gelato which is AMAZING!!!

Anyway, I’m posting a blog post for the sake of posting a blog post. I’ll have something more interesting later. In the mean time, have some marshmallows.

Happy Birthday Lucas William Chapman

Happy Birthday Puke Scrapman

BTW, his middle name isnt William (to my knowledge). I just thought it sounded cool. I also thought pink was appropriately manly for his name.

Domo Kun

IT'S DOMO KUN!!!

Fuck the pirate rule, Domo gets AUTO shotgun...

FUCK the pirate rule, Domo gets AUTO shotugn in my car.

Emo Music and YOU!

So I seem to be in a big 'emo music' phase right now.... Not sure why (perhaps something to do with the previous post.... *tugs collar*) but meh, I'm enjoying it.

It's not the depressing lyrics that do it for me (hilarious, they may be) but I love the beats and rhythms of it all. It's so syncopated and complexly interwound... it rocks!

Ashes Divide, Paramore, Karnivool (not really emo, just heavy prog), Kasabian (also prog), Flyleaf (in moderation) Jose Gonzalez, Sufjan Stevens, Cog,  (both more depressinng than emo) etc etc. I'll update this when im at home...

Irrational, emotional, angsty, corny rant (with emo picture to boot)

NB: This was posted at 3am after a night out, so probably not the most sane blog post in the world...

So I'm sick of it. Sick of being lied to, sick of being betrayed, sick of feeling insecure, sick of being messed around. I'm over it.

I went through 5 years of hell in school. Sure, there were good bits, i dont deny that. But it was mostly hell for me, and it screwed me up emotionally. For the better part of my life I have tried to be kind, caring, empathic and affectionate to those close to me and to those around me. I had faith in humanity that one day, somehow, I might get treated the same way.

I always tried to do everything for my friends. To be there for them, to help them with their issues, to cheer them up when they were down, to share laughs and share tears, to have moments and memories to look back on. Corny as fuck (important to note, in this rant), I know, but that's who I am. I did everything I could, even if it meant harm to me. I didn't care, because I knew what it was like. I knew what it felt like to be hurt, to be in pain and have no way to stop it. I knew that they needed me.

So it perplexes me when nothing ever goes my way. This may seem like a usual, teenage, angsty rant, but it doesnt change the way i feel. I finally think things are going my way and then shit hits the fan.

But what is even worse is when I finally let my guard down, when I finally get the courage and fortitude to let myself become vulnerable, I get stabbed in the back. Not just the back, but in the face, heart and lungs.

I'm sick, and I'm tired. I'm sick of caring, sick of optimism. Tired of being let down time after time after time. Sick of defending people not worth defending. Tired of looking past the multitude of bad to the insignificant amount of good in someone. Sick of being afraid to take a risk. I'm tired of being afraid of who I am.

The people who this is directed at: I'm fairly sure you're too self-absorbed to think this relates to you, or even bother to read it. Unfortunetly, there's a part of me that knows this will have no effect on you even if you did read it...

So that's it. I'm out. I'm done.

Hedomisn

So as I sit here on my Studio XPS desktop with 2 X 240WFP screens, looking at an email from Catch of the Day.... I realise.... I am a hedonistic wanker.

I cant stop buying crap I dont need! I cant stop spending money on stuff! I have 2 really good jobs that pay me, and I spend nearly all the money I earn! I have a gym that syphons money out of my account for nothing, I eat crappy food when I'm at work and uni, and I have a recording studio downstairs that I can't even use...

So tell me your hedonism stories. I'd really like to feel better about myself knowing I'm not alone!

i7s and YOU!

God i love the stupidness of computers.

I experienced the awesomeness of my computer today (Dell Studio XPS Desktop) when I imported ALL the music i have (ipod, hard drive, sisters ipod, etc) into itunes at the same time. According to iTunes, it's 60gb of music... and it imported in about 8 mins... that's about 22 songs per second.

HOWEVER... when it comes to a much more challenging task such as un-minimising itunes.... the computer has a spack and I have to end explorer.exe...

Gotta love it...

Anyway, back to installing Halo 2

el Ranto

Ok, so i have tempoarally pulled my rant from my page due to it being a teensy bit abusive towards my employer...

Updatez0rs

While i have 8% of battery life left and probably about 10mb of mobile broadband usage, i thought id post a blog update.

Im in Sydney. WOOO! Visiting my sis for her 21st. The party was awesome, Dad paid for the tab...so WIN!!!

Went to World Bar after that, and I can say, after 4 pots (they serve cocktails in tea-pots), i can sucessfully say 'World Bar' >>> GP-Hoe.

Anyway, I have a giant black spot in my memory after that, but this photo appeared on my iPhone, so it looks like i was prowling the cross...

Ok, battery dying. Update when i get back to brissie on tuesday.

NB. The staff at Dell Boni Junction are idiots.

So I just met Dylan Moran

You heard me. He came to the kiosk and asked me where a shoe store was. I stared at him, dumbfounded... and said 'Sorry... what?'. He spelt it out for me, looking uninterested and unamused. I told him i didnt know, sorry. He walked away and i blurted out 'I didnt know you were in brisbane'. He turned around, looking slightly satisfied that someone recognised him and said 'Well,  yes I am'. And took his kids down the hallway. 

On the way back, I offered him a westfield directory and he said "No, thank you I found the place" so i said "ok. thanks. and good luck, Dylan". He waved and walked away.

Yeah, I know the photo sucks, but I didnt want to seem like a TOTAL stalker.

This, without a doubt, counts as a WIN!

'Cleaning' my Room

So in the interest of cleaning my room, i took all the clothes I own and put them on my bed. Took me about 40 mins to find my work uniform this morning...

But now i have room on my table for my new computer and 2 screens!

Didn't end up finding my keys, though.... Which is a bit awkward.

Given the state of my bed, i think i have to count this as a fail.

Mute Math

For those of you who I haven't introduced into the religion of Mute Math, watch the link below. Make note of exactly what is going on, then contemplate the logistics of such a thing...

UQ Parking

So I was at uni, and i realised i'd just spent the last of my shrapnel on a red bull... so i searched around the car and found $3 in change. unfortunetly, the machines dont take 5c coins.... so I put this on the dash, hoping at least they would commend my hilarity and let me off.

They gave me a warning! I count that as a WIN.

I love Antoine Dufour

Meet Charli

My bird :) Her name is Charli. Ernie (short for ernestine... conveniently changed after we found out the sex) is currently AWOL and difficult to catch because...she's insane, basically.

So im gonna use this now

Hello all. I have a blog now :) 

So I went to computer alliance today and bought a new inkjet and a video converter hub. I get to make a video for my sisters 21st.... yay. I get to listen to my 26 year old sister come up with stupid ideas and then try and make me make it into a video... And Luke, do not ask me if they are hot.

My hatred for VHS players has risen again... I have to stream them onto the comptuer and the player doesnt work... freakin typical. 

So as you can see I'm in a pretty foul mood. I just want to get out of this damn house.

On a lighter note, my recording 'studio' is pretty much done. I just need to get some mic cables, reformat my macbook pro and learn how to use my mixer! HUZZAH! But I do have my drum kit back in my house.

Anywayz, imma watch some stupid movie that Luke (you got 2 mentions, feel special) gave me.